The past 8 months have been the hardest and most eye opening of my entire life. Its amazing the things you’ll learn about yourself when you’re at the bottom of the barrel. First, I learned that its okay to ask for help. Second, I am learning that I AM WORTH IT & YOU ARE WORTH IT!
One of the HARDEST things for me to accept (before this point) was loving and accepting myself physically. I’ve never felt good enough and had always been in major denial about my body and why it didn’t look how I wanted it to. I felt like I was jumping from yo-yo diet to juice cleanse like Tarzan swinging wildly in the jungle. I was SO HARD on myself, especially on my body and was never happy with my physical appearance. 30 days ago I was a tired, emotionally drained mom who was always grumpy, frumpy and needed a daily nap with my two-year-old just to make it through the day.
Over a year and a half ago I was introduced to an organic daily nutrition system by my friend Melanie and I wasn’t interested. Honestly, I wasn’t ready for it. After hitting rock bottom (physically and emotionally) and weighing in at two pounds more than I did when I was full term pregnant with my daughter, ouch! I was ready for a huge change. I called my friend Melanie, (Who lost and has kept off 60 lbs!) because I wanted a BIG change, I was ready for it. I have to admit that I was still skeptical, but I was willing to try it out.I started my 30 day system, mentally committing to only do it for 1 week. I had all the intentions to return it when it didn’t work out for me. The first four days were really hard, I had a headache from all of the detoxing but I kept going. I was BLOWN AWAY after seeing my transformation over the next seven days. The results weren’t just affecting my pant size, my skin was getting more even and for the first time ever, I didn’t breakout during that time of the month. I stopped feeling tired and needing to nap with my daughter. You guys, I seriously feel like I’m 21 again!
I stuck with it and after thirty days, its still hard to believe how big my transformation is. Sometimes I forget that I was so big when I started. It almost brings tears to my eyes when I think about the opportunity I passed up a year and a half ago, especially knowing what I know now. But I’m here, I’m doing it NOW. I am so inspired to get into my best physical and emotional shape, and I’m doing for ME. Not my Mom, not the mean girls from junior high, not my husband. This is ALL on me.
I’m realizing this is the most doable thing I’ve ever done. All of the methods I’d done in the past were the very definition of “crash diets” they weren’t even close to sustainable long term. Every morning, I want to hug by body and apologize for being so harsh and awful toward as I was in the past. Each of us has been given the most amazing gift, our bodies. And its a miracle that they are able to function after all of the suffering physically and emotionally. You guys, tell yourself that you love your imperfect body. Thank yourself by being better to your body and treating it right!